Van broke down again what might seem bad might be good manifested less things and the universe responded

I used to tuck in to creative work and now it takes a lot to sit with myself, alone, undistracted in silence noise noise noise noise noise noise noise

fear: I create nothing blocked by some invisible force starting power is weaker these days addicted to phone, porn, feeds, screens.

reality: I create nothing blocked by some invisible force starting power is weaker these days addicted to phone, porn, feeds, screens

arbitrary failures unreasonably often expansive thought to fight contractive forces brain out of wack but hanging in there… barely over the threshold day to day.

had a dream where I spoke in a high pitched voice not sure what i’m doing, but felt weird

now I’m procrastinating and can’t start my self imposed tasks for the day. Feeling frustrated and angry and released but tense.

Do I lean in to disorganized thought? Do I abandon all that does not serve me? Do I eschew self-control in an authoritarian fashion? Do I do i do i do i do i do i do i do i do i

STOP. BREATHE. STRETCH. ASSESS. MOVE. OK.